In her new book, Kristiane Backer talks openly about the superficiality of the TV and music business which almost broke her, and about her two failed marriages. As somebody who converted to Islam she has been living a life between two worlds, not feeling fully accepted by either. She grew up as a Protestant in Hamburg. The 43-year-old Backer prays five times a day now and does not drink any alcohol. She donates money to the poor and observes the Ramadan fast.

"I would be happy if my book inspired people to discover their spiritual side and to open themselves up. On the other hand, I want to help clarify some prejudices against Islam. I want to build bridges and help support the dialogue between different religions and cultures."

Meeting with Imran Khan

She met the famous Pakistani cricketer Imran Khan in London in 1992. He introduced her to the teachings of the Quran. During their almost three-year long relationship Kristiane visited Pakistan many times with Khan, who is considered a national legend for leading Pakistan to their first Cricket World Cup win in 1992. For Kristiane, a new world opened up. Even after Khan - the love of her life - decided to end their relationship, Kristiane Backer became a Muslim in 1995 and finally quit her job at MTV.

"First, your relationship with God in Islam is very close, because you pray so many times a day. If you pray five times a day, you are connecting yourself with God every time you pray. Another thing is that I could not understand some of the doctrines of Christianity. I could not understand the whole concept of trinity that teaches the unity of the Father, the son and the Holy Spirit in one. I was also fascinated by the humanity of the people I met which can be seen all over the Orient."

Conversion to Islam

The decision to convert to Islam led to a change in Kristiane Backer. She took to wearing long skirts and sleeves. Her parents, relatives and friends were worried, Kristiane remembers and adds that finally everybody accepted her decision. But the German media were not so kind. Kristiane Backer believes that much of the current Islamophobia in Europe can be traced back to historical conflicts.

"But one thing I don’t understand: At the time of Goethe oriental literature inspired the Romantic Movement. It seems that at that time, there was apparently a greater openness and maybe a greater understanding for another religion and culture, at least on a cultural basis."

Critics have called Kristiane Backer's book naive, saying she ignores negative sides of Muslim societies. But Kristiane argues that a lot of what is happening worldwide in the name of Islam is absolutely unislamic. She has become mature, more relaxed and composed over time. She lives as a single woman in London, but has still not lost hope to find her Mr. Right. "Inshallah, if it is God’s will," she adds, smiling.

Author: Priya Esselborn
Editor: Grahame Lucas